It’s okay to grieve and it’s okay to get help. Talk to someone you trust… but please just keep walking. Remember that sadness does not mean lack of sabr (patience) or faith.
Prophet Yaqoub (PBUH) was a very patient man and yet his grief for losing Yousuf (PBUH) was unparalleled.
And he (Yaqub pbuh) said, “Oh, my sorrow over Yusuf,” and his eyes became white from grief because of the sorrow that he suppressed.” (Qur’an 12:84)